“Stripped of myself, stripped of religion . . ., I had nothing before God. I drug my worthless emptiness to him anyway. I didn’t know what else to do. I had nowhere else to go. But what I found when I got there was an intimacy with my Heavenly Father that I had never known. An intimacy that might never have been mine if not for suffering.”
Karan Standley’s story powerfully demonstrates God’s redemptive nature of taking ordinary people – with not-so-pretty pasts – and using them to do extra-ordinary things. I met Karan at an event last month and was intrigued by her passion.
Karan, please share your experience with us.
“What I viewed as an ending was really just a beginning. When my first marriage died – and I say died because it was a long, slow death – I thought that I would sit upon a shelf until I died or the Lord returned. I really did. I’ll never forget a conversation with my mom, "Karan, now God is going to do something!" I laughed and thought. "Great!" I had been stripped of me and religion, but eventually found an intimacy with my Father that I had never known. My wants were few, and I never expected to teach Sunday school or lead a ladies’ Bible study again. I was okay with that. I only wanted Jesus and this new found intimacy with God.
But God had other plans. A second marriage. A pastor’s wife, me! Using me to encourage women to follow hard after him. God has surely put a new song in my mouth and given me a new name. I have a passion to see women set free from religion and learn to sit at the feet of Jesus. And all of this came only after I lost everything that I held dear. What I find most extraordinary about my life is that I have survived what I always said I could not. I have more than survived. I am thriving. But it is not due to anything I have done – it is all God!!! An ordinary life always becomes extraordinary when placed in God’s hands with no strings attached.
Total surrender. I know He gives beauty for ashes – not just because His Word says so, but because I am living proof. I’m always amazed at the number of women who feel just like I felt: unworthy, no good, a failure, useless. The fact that God allows me to minister to them knocks my socks off! I told God that I would be faithful to share my story to encourage others. But I didn’t know that He would take me up on it! I praise Him today because He delights in using broken vessels. That’s me: broken, but not forsaken.
I haven’t always liked my testimony. It’s not pretty. It’s messy. Ugly. Wrong. But people don’t need to hear another fairy tale story. They need to hear about someone’s less than perfect life and how they overcame it. I’m amazed at the growth that has come from suffering. The peace. The contentment. This place of quiet acceptance is very freeing. Maybe that’s the most extraordinary part: that God took a woman wrapped in religion and set her free in Christ. That He uses her to help others find their way to Him and freedom. Yeah, that’s me: a freedom fighter.
Robin, there is so much more I could say, but I often feel like people are thinking, "Will she ever shut up?" So, I thank you for listening to a portion of my story, for wanting to hear my story. I’m honored and excited every time someone asks me to share my testimony. Yes, the one that I despised at first has now become my joy to share. I understand your feeling that you would rather share your story than eat your next meal. I’m so there. Isn’t God just awesome?!!!! So press on, knowing that you are being lifted up to our Father in prayer.”
Thank you Karan, for sharing how God, in his great love, mercy, and grace, takes our broken, ordinary lives and does extraordinary things through us. It has been my joy to help you share.
Post a reply with how Karan’s story has encouraged you. It would delight me to help you share your story as well. If you have a story that would encourage others please contact me at Robin@RobinBryce.com.